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[27 Aug 2006|11:25am] |
I wasn't really close with Jordan. I didn't know him so well. He tried to let me get to know him, but I pushed him away. I had led him on once, and I didn't want him to get the wrong idea again. I did know that he was a great kid, with a great sense of humor and outlook on life. He didn't belong in a war, fighting. He belonged right here. I regret the fact that I always thought he'd be coming home safe. I wish I had taken his advice of living in the moment because the future is now. He was right about that.
Your life can change in such a flash that it'll make your whole world spin. I think some of us forget that, because we're so cozy in our comfortable little lives that we don't think about what's really going on. There's a WAR going on. Men and women that belong here in our arms are out in the streets, fighting, shooting, and getting shot. It's ridiculous. I don't think anyone who supports this war really REALLY knows the consequences. No matter of religion or oil or anything is worth torturing these soldiers only to have their lives taken in the end.
Twenty-one years old. That could easily be your brother, your cousin, your son, even your boyfriend. He wanted to have children one day, and he couldn't wait to start training to be a nurse. I remember making fun of him for it but secretly i was proud that he knew exactly what he wanted to do in life. Now, because of a pointless, endless war across the desert, his dreams are forever lost in the sand.
I know that he died a hero, and I know that he was protecting our freedom, but I would let my freedom be at risk if it meant that he could live. How much is really being done to "protect our freedom" anyway? We got the bad guy, now bring my soldiers back.
Jordan, I know i've told you this a thousand times since friday, but I am so sorry for not writing more, and for not taking your calls. If I could go back, I would've done so much differently. You were right when you said I was being immature, because I'm only 17, and that's what I am, no matter how grown up I like to think I am. You deserved so much more than a life in Fallujah, in 130 degree heat, working 18 hour days, bullets whizzing by your head every other second. You deserved so much more than a little girl leading you on. You deserved a letter everyday, not one every 3 months. You deserved a friend in me, and I failed at that. I just pray that you forgive me, and one day, when I see you again, we can be friends again.
Goodbye Jordan Pierson.
June 22 1985- August 25 2006.
If you still support this pointless war or the idiot some call a president, I dont want to hear your opinion. You obviously are brainwashed and mislead, and I pity you.
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[24 May 2006|03:55pm] |
pictures from paramore.org/david apuzzo/paramorefans.com
comment & credit pleaseee
teaser
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[08 May 2006|05:51pm] |
one paramore 800x600 wallpaper
photos by David Apuzzo
comment please!!!!
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[02 Mar 2006|11:01pm] |
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this life blows.
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[24 Feb 2006|12:10pm] |
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i really cant stand this trend of being racist because its making me fucking sick. all i hear is people using the N word and making jokes and its like a fucking fad these days. what the fuck is wrong with you people??
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[12 Feb 2006|11:26am] |
i will die of boredom today.
fuck you blizzard of '06
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[08 Feb 2006|03:09pm] |
i found my prom dress!!!!!!
buy it and you'll die.
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[26 Jan 2006|01:45pm] |
03/24/06 - Webster Theatre (HARTFORD, CT)
The rocket summer w/ Relient K and Maxeen.
06:00 pm / $
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[20 Jan 2006|05:31pm] |
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username change cause LJ let me do it for free. :)
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[17 Jan 2006|06:22am] |
my fellow ricks 1-3 and the adopted one...
a year has passed since ricksex was born and we decided that we were hotter than everyone else :D and what a year its been. I've decided that true friends go through it all: life and death, laughs and tears, fights and makeups, breakups and boyfriends. No matter what we say about one another, we always come back for more, because our love is stronger than any little argument or grudge.
I want to thank you four for being there constantly and for being the friends I always hoped I would have. Thank you for adopting me into your calfpen gang of hoodlums because this orchardhiller would be very lonely without you. You've helped me grow into the person I am today and I love you all more than I can simply write down in a journal entry.
So here's to us, fucking best friends a girl could have. Happy Rick Day!
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[05 Jan 2006|05:54pm] |
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today was a good day. :D
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[21 Dec 2005|06:59am] |
Oh LJ I miss you.
I NEVER write in here anymore.
- 3 days until vacation and partying the whole damn time.
- New Haven on friday ♥
- christmas sunday
- meeting kurtis! haha
- a real new years this year.
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[05 Dec 2005|06:08pm] |
a. list ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
b. don't say who they are.
c. disable comments.
d. never discuss it again.
1. I sometimes wonder what the fuck is in your head, because you can be THE WIERDEST person, but I absolutely would never change you because I love that you are the only person I can really be myself with.
2. You're one of my best friends, and I love you so much, but sometimes too much of a good thing isnt good. Sometimes you make me wanna rip my hair out.
3. Somedays I hate you, and somedays I love you. You're a crazy person, and sometimes I think you're just so fake. But then other days, I'm extremely jealous of your beauty.
4. You're ungrateful and I just dont like you. You're an unintelligent asshole most of the time and I dont know why I put up with you.
5. I get so jealous of you because you are so beautiful, and you just either dont know it, or pretend not to know it. Sometimes I dont like being around you because you're perfect most of the time. I truley idolize you, and I wish I didn't.
6. Sometimes the way you talk makes me want to harm myself physically.
7. Stop hiding your face behind all that makeup, and fix your hair, because youre beautiful, but you need to take care of yourself a little bit.
8. You tend to isolate yourself when you feel uncomfortable. You need to learn how to handle things more maturely.
9. You are the funniest person I know and the cutest. You're growing up to be such a beautiful girl and I just wish you knew that.
10. Stop being such a cynical, egotistical, bitch.
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[03 Dec 2005|12:06am] |
pms is such a bitch sometimes...
all the time
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[29 Nov 2005|06:39am] |
so life lately has just been kicking back with my friends and i love them.
new york on saturday <3
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[17 Nov 2005|09:18pm] |
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I had an amazing day and I will go through it detail by detail. :D
It started in the parking lot, amy ash and myself found joe and decided we were going to mama T's, so we did, for pizza and joe tried to pay but we hid the money in his truck.
Next we picked up robyn, threw money between cars, and went to the beach while waiting for vinny to get home. He came home and we looked at his amazingly cute house. amy got a new nickname (pissass) and we looked at embarrassing pictures of the boys.
Jenn, michelle, and shan brought vinny starbucks because they love him and then some weird misunderstanding happened and they left. The rest of us went to the cafe and got drinks then walked robyn to work. The guys ditched half way cause theyre lazy and then picked us up at CVS where we crammed into joe's truck. ashley proceeded to sit on vinny in a strange position and I used vinny as a cup holder.
We then continued onto vinnys house because SOME people like to leave their coats at places, then we went to amys where we chilled out to itunes until vinny had to go to work. This is when the war started.
Joe had a pizza box from mama t's and vinny brought it in my car. I told michelle to put it in the back of joes truck cause it was HIS so she did. He ate the last piece but then threw the crust on my car. We knew it was time for payback so once at bella napolis, we squirted handsanitizer on his windshield (which looked like jizz and wouldnt come off easily). Joe took ashleys chem book from my car and dropped it out of his window at a red light! (amy got out and got it) so then we went to the beach and amy and I distracted joe while ash and michelle wrote "i love men" in hand sanitizer on his windshield (we cleaned it off later cause we're nice).
When ashley was trying to rush back into my car, she smacked her face on the door and her lip started bleeding! haha. <3 i love you ash.
From the beach, we went to amys where we decided to go eat. Robyn came back to amys and we went to joes where we got a tour and played with ben, then to maxines for chicken fingers and toasted cheeses. The night ended with us 5 on a couch watching muppet christmas and playing with our cell phones.
tomorrow i get to hang outw ith come hotties indcluding michelle and jenn the baker after i go see harry potter and shop with my mom. Im excited.
lovely day <3 i was so overdue for a good day like this one.
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I've been having so much fun with these kids.
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[13 Nov 2005|12:30am] |
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pictures from a "fall photoshoot" lol. Im no model but I think some came out nice.
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[08 Nov 2005|11:46am] |
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DISTANCE SUCKS
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